I have only been watching Supernatural since mid-Summer 2015 after stumbling upon it on Netflix. The characters' journeys and growth were amazing to follow. Bu as I do with any show I come to love, I started following the actors' real lives and that's when the addiction happened.
In 2009 I lost my brother to heart failure at age 35, he was 6'4 and well over 400lbs. My brother and I were very close and a very large piece of me was crushed to oblivion and rendered irrelevant. I stopped everything I was and gave up what little care I had for myself. It took years to get back to being o.k. with being alive without him, or to stop being jealous that he was gone and I was still here.
Then came Supernatural- well to me anyway- and its wonderful cast. I have not yet met either you, Jensen, or Jared in person, I've never been to a convention yet but to hear stories from your co-stars, guest stars and behind the scenes team members describe your personalities, generosity, love of life, each other, your fans and your jobs has re-awakened so many things I gave up. Jensen, you in particular have become an absolute heart throb for me and not just because of your adorable looks (although that doesn't hurt) but you seem to be a genuinely warm person who has his friends' back and is a loyal husband and father. You share way too many characteristics with my brother; born March 1st, tall, supportive, musical, beautifully quiet voice, belief in people and probably not coming to fully understand the value of the beautiful soul that you are.
You have inspired in me to get back to my creativity, my writing, singing, acting, my health. AKF has helped me to keep it going once I got started. I've lost over 30lbs in that past couple months alone, started a poetry book, taking acting classes and signed up with a casting agency in Boston. You boys, with what you do both in and out of the show, inspire far more than you mean to and are truly Supernatural.