CHAPTER :
Always Keep Fighting
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Kathryn Johnson   —   8 years ago

When Jared started the "Always Keep Fighting", I don't think I've been happier. I was amazed and felt loved when I discovered it. I know so many people fight through anxiety and depression and OCD and so many other mental illnesses and to have one of my favorite people in the world not afraid to admit he was fighting it too made me feel stronger. It hit me that celebrities can go through something so hard, just like everyone else. I was digonsed with depression in the summer of 2013, after my 8th grade year. A so called friend of mine kept screwing me over and using me and I just stopped eating, slept more, argued with everyone, cried constantly, and my grades started to fall. I began watching Supernatural. It began to become my coping activity. In 9th grade, I told a doctor I wanted to go to the hospital. Both of my parents freaked out. My dad yelled at me, my mom cried. I just felt worse. But Supernatural was there for me. My 10th grade year, my family and I moved. I felt like my world was falling apart even more. They were taking me away from my friends, from the people I depended on the most. Of course, I watched Supernatural to escape what was happening. When I began going to the new school, I actually made friends with a girl that watched Supernatural as well. Through that, the two of us bonded and I had a friend I felt I could count on. For my 16th birthday, I begged my mom to get me a "Always Keep Fighting" sweatshirt. It came in the mail several days later. My heart felt like it could burst. I felt closer to Jared. Sometimes when I just feel like the world is against me and I just want to die, I curl up with that sweatshirt, look at some of the videos Jared puts up about keep fighting and watch Supernatural. Now, not only does Jared help me. When I found out about everything Misha went through, that reminds me that you can overcome any obstacle as long as you try and you stay alive. When I found out Jensen takes a while to trust people and is insecure and real shy, I felt connected to him. He and I share those qualities. These three men help me everyday to keep pushing through life, to always keep fighting. I don't know what would've happened if I hadn't started watching Supernatural, or what would've happened if Jared hadn't started the "Always Keep Fighting". I don't want to even think about what would've happened. I may not get to meet these men. They may not even read this, but if thise does get to them and they read it, I just want them to know that I look up to them. It may sound super corny, but at times, I do think of them as my superheros. Thank you, Jared, Jensen and Misha. I owe you.

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